Baka wo miru...

Remember the time when I had the chance to talk to her? Since you told me that you were i-love with her and you were just finding the right time to tell me that you and her have this M.U., I tried to contact her and told her how a fine bf you are;if she'd taken chances with you; how sweet you are, this and that..telling her I'm ok,even if the truth was talking to her, telling her that was like tormenting, stabbing myself with a knife. I was pushing you to her as if it seemed that I'm so glad to have you taken away... But no one knows that behind those smileys I put up in our chat, behind each word I told her for your own account was my tears falling freely in my eyes down to my cheeks as I was typing and talking to her. I am perfectly aware of the people inside the internet cafe, aware that they can see me crying but hell, I dont care if they do.

Even if that time I was 8 1/2 months pregnant with our child (who you almost disowned because you doubted it was yours!). Even if that was the time I needed you most. Even if that time my parents were flaring in anger because of you and me having too kind to you after all you've done. I was on the verge of breaking down but still I tried to understand you and chose to help you with her.
Even when we were already 'living-in' did I suggested/insisted you (still) go to her place. I even told you to go and meet her the time you told me she was coming here.
Those stupid ideas I made for you just to see you happy...

...I know you did nothing (except texting and calling her >.>)
and you ended up being dumped (tsk..tsk..)

But heck! whenever I remember those moments; those memories of acting stupid and playing a fool for you; I wanted to slap myself over and over until I realize how stupid I was to do such stupid things.
And I did it because I love you (Pesteng love yan! amf!). And I guess you were too busy looking at somebody else to realize how much I have sacrificed. And because that time, all you see in me were things you can't find in me.

Now you came back, telling me how sorry you were. I couldn't believe it at first for I feared I'd be hurt again. I let the wounds heal first and let you in again (you know its always open for you naman eh :))

And then again...after 2 1/2 months, I discovered something..

I know you quite enough to make me act this way. I'm sorry if I cry too much. I cant help it. I couldn't just ignore things I see, things that hurt me and reminds me of the past. I'm not making it up - and I'm not paranoid. So, she was just a girl you found cute while playing your GW,eh? I believed you but I had this feeling that there's something about that picture. And it made me think of her again.. Oh great!

*Jealous, am I? Yes.and scared.. you can't blame me if I do.

~I ought to have told you this personally but I have a terrible sore throat, I have no voice. And I don't want a fight, I'm just telling you how I feel.=3
*Gihigugma ko naman ikaw eh! :P*

And for heaven's sake,please, Stop quoting a song and associate it with how you feel. It makes me hate the song. Really. XP